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Someone I really miss is my Tio Nunu. He passed away years ago but it doesn’t feel that long. I remember the day of his funeral so vividly. I felt sooo numb, I couldn’t process what I was feeling. I remember walking up to his open casket and seeing him like that was truly heartbreaking. I remember feeling how cold he felt when I touched his hand. I immediately broke into tears. I sobbed and seeped sooo hard. I was on the floor crying so hard. I finally realized this was my reality and it wasn’t a nightmare that I was gonna just wake up from. I remember all our fun memories! Especially the ones where we are cappin at Sequoia National Park and playing soccer. Everytime I play soccer I remeber my Tio Nunu!! It brings me so much joy knowing he is one of my motivations. I love my Tio Nunu and the impact he had in my life. He would joke around with me a lot!! He always knew how to make me laugh. He would trick me most times by tapping on my shoulder and pretending it wasn’t him. I would look around confused and he would act so serious like it wasn’t him tricking me! Everytime someone taps on my shoulder in a joking way like that’s it immediately reminds me of my Tio Nunu! My tio Nunu gave such great advice. My tio Nunu was sooo calm and patient! He always knew what to say at the exact right time. His favorite number is 4 which is why my favorite number is 4. In highschool we got to pick our jersey numbers so I would pick #4 in honor of him. After scoring goals I would end my celebrations by going to the #4 on the field and kiss my hand, put my hand that I kissed touching the #4 and lastly throwing that kiss up to my tio Nunu in heaven. I do this all in honor and dedication of my tio Nunu! I also miss my abuelita Mallen! She would have all our family at her house on every Sunday when I was growing up. I looked forward to Sundays because I got to see all my cousins, tios and tias!! I loved spending time with my family! As my abuelita got older she would come over every day once a week! She would have her coffee and limited cookies due to diabetes. She would always ask me to sneak her cookies when I was younger , so I would! As she continued to grow older she lost her memory more and more due to alzimers . It was truly heartbreaking to see my abuelita lose her memory more and more. Especially when she would forget my ama’s name or my tios name. Seeing their reactions to my abuelita not realizing who they were was truly heart breaking. I loved going on walks with my abuelita around the block. At my abuelitas house she had rose bushes, so everytime I see a rose I think of my beautiful abuelita. I miss my passed loved ones so much but to me they still are living…they live through memories, photos, videos and everyday situations! When I miss them, I usually remember fun memories spent together and it brings me some joy and love! I carry their wisdom with me each day. I carry their dreams with me every where I go, my abuelitas dream was to become a teacher and my Tio Nunu dream was to continue playing soccer. Til this day I still play soccer and I love it so much. I also am in school to become an elementary school teacher. I love teaching others! I’m so grateful to be able to know and be related to my abuelita and Tio Nunu!!🩷🕊️